Lunch Alone

So there was this primary student girl who came to the restaurant where I was having lunch in. She ordered her food then resumed with her gadget. The food came she proceeded to eat. She was alone. I thought she was so independant and wondered where her parents were.

The next day she came out of a 4x4 with her elder sister and her mom (maybe). She came to the restaurant as usual. The previous question answered. But where did her mother and sister had gone to?

I finished my lunch and paid via boost. I got into my car. Then I saw her mom and sister in a restaurant next to the restaurant where the girl was. They were eating nasi ayam. That explains it. The girl prefered delicious meat to chicken.

The end.

Day Dreaming.

Alone is peaceful. Here I am trying to write something out. Trying to keep the nerve cells active. Tun M said if you do not use your brain, you could become senile. But I wonder if day dreaming could do the same effect on the brain. I mean day dreaming give you peace but could it prevent senility?

Just watched a Makoto Shinkai movie this morning and it gave a deep impact on me. I love MS animated movies besides Hayako Miyazaki's. The tedious details they do to their animations are second to none. Even Disney could not top them. HM usually uses classical era while MS takes on the contemporary settings.

The time will come...

...when I'd find someone who does not afraid to love me back.

Dormant Love

It's been dormant for quite some time... it's gonna be active again...

Keeping it practical

I mean, I see people tend to buy large cars, expensive cars. What's the purpose? It will all end up in jams. I've my k-car for 10 years now. I can do other things with the extra money that I now get. At times I must admit it, I do have the urge of buying a four by four myself, but the traffic congestion always turns me off.

By the way, I have my scooter for more than a year now, and it is most appropriate to be used especially in Kota Kinabalu where the jams are 24/7 especially in peak hours. With it, I could make it 30 minutes what a car would take 2 hours time with. The only downside of it is of course rainy days.

Hari Berlalu

Here's another one...

Hari Berlalu

Kecilku sehening suasana

Wajah-wajah ceria bersilih menjenguk tingkap minda

Kata kehendakku seringkas tangisan

Seingatku

Hari berlalu...

Perjuangan pertama mengorak langkah

Tak mudah kata kaki kecilku

Namun tuturku antara fasih

Persis kata orang tuaku

Hari berlalu...

Didikku tak seceria gembira

Teman tak mengungkap ertinya

Ke sekolah bagai ke neraka

Sentiasa ku sertakan doa

Harapanku

Hari berlalu...

Suka duka mewarnai remajaku

Kisah pahit seakan berulang

Walau yang manis berjaya menyerlah

Namun semuanya hanya seketika

Sebab ku pasti

Hari berlalu...

Andaiku setakat itu pencarian ilmu

Fakta hidup mendorong capaiku

Kadang menang kadang pasrah

Membina matangku

Kepasrahan lalu menambah tikaku

Hari berlalu...

Tanpa kasihNya

Pastinya tak mampu ku ke detik ini

Walau masih sedetik dua

Ku tau Dia tetap selamanya

Walau sehebat mana

Hari berlalu...            Wod. Thursday, January 28, 1999.

Ku 'Kan Kembali

I thought I should share this... I penned this during my college days...

KU KAN KEMBALI

Sekian lama berada di sisi ibu dan ayah

Pahit manis, tawa tangis pasti dilalui bersama

Tak terlintas di fikiranku kan berpisah

Namun tiba masa untukku mengorak langkah

Berjuang tuk masa depan yang cerah

Tuk ibu dan ayah kulafazkan kesyukuran

Atas kasih sayang mereka yang tulus dan murni

Raut wajah mereka jelas mengukir sedihnya satu perpisahan

Yang padanya juga terserlah satu pengharapan

Kelak diriku kembali bertemankan sebuah kejayaan

Tidak terukur dalamnya kasih Ilahi

Sertai dan urapi perjuangan suci hambaMu ini

Juga kepada ibu dan ayah tika melayani

Ku pasti suatu hari nanti aku kan kembali

Mengecap semula kasih sayang sejati

Di perantauan mengejar satu kejayaan

Bebanan kalanya menggusar keterampilan dan keimanan

Namun ku pasrahkan segalanya dalam tangan Tuhan

Pasti sehari nanti semuanya kan berlalu

Semoga ku kembali bersama ayah dan ibu.        Wod. Thursday, March  26, 1998

私の愛

なぜあなたはちょうどあなたが私かどうかを愛すると言うことはできません？

Confessed!

I would've waited for a bit but the circumstances drove me to my action. Enough said, I haven't received a proper response. Waiting in agony; if one would put it that way.

It isn't coincidence

Reflecting on all the events that led us up to this point; I think circumstances are in favour of us. I'm hoping that this path is what God wants us to be on. Let's put Him first, and anticipate what He has in store for us.

Honesty

Hardly ever heard, but I'm glad I heard it from you.

Phlegmatic

I just can't pursue a relationship if it is not mutual. I've got to have at least a tiny clue that could ensure my approach is not in vain. I don't feel comfortable nagging people. Because if it was not mutual, then all I'd be doing is pestering. I really don't like that. Then I'd be in silent mode...

TRUE FRIEND

I am glad for when you were at your most vulnerable state the first person you would contact was me. What have I done to get your trust that I could comfort you? Which I did. And for that reason our friendship has grown stronger.

Heavy Heart I Have

Exo 20:14 Thou shalt not commit adultery.

Mat 24:24 For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect.

How could I put these verses in perspective?

New Tasks for Moi

Usually, at this festive season of the year, the Board would assign me to documentation. In affiliation with the previous years, this year I was assigned to backdrop and decoration. Previously, these posts were assigned to separate individuals. Fortunately (cynically), this time, both were assigned to moi (French for 'me'). I was in hesitation to begin with, but so far it has been good. I am very truly blessed to have such supporting niece (r u reading this?) and friends, which make impossible, if you may, things materialize. My utmost gratitude to them and to my Lord and Savior. :)

Non-verbal language

There are many ways one can give one's message across. We usually do it verbally. But recently, though I've begun to realize this for so long now, I noticed that messages can be given across via photos. Whether they were posted deliberately or not, they sure cry out the message across. You post it as a wall paper on your laptop computer, inside your wallet/purse, inside a frame on your table, etc. If let say, in your purse, when paying up, you flash the photo around, the one noticing it will feel like you're slapping the message to his/her face so hard his/her face becomes numb. Get it?

Save me...

My eyes were crying out, "save me!" But I'm not sure they succeeded in doing so. Cause my heart is being lead astray...

Making a movie worthwhile

Have you ever watched a very boring movie but felt it was worth it. Fortunately, the movie I watched was so-so. And it was worth it. That's all I need to say. :)

Pizzup?

So I dated a friend. Well, it was fun. No romanticizing. But simply fun. We laughed our heads off. Who cared about modesty and stuffs cause we're simply friends. ^^

Can't we be just friends...

Just because I'm single doesn't mean I'm desperate! I don't know why people keep on pushing me. S0 maybe it seems that I befriend her. This doesn't mean that it will end up in marriage. I respect the fact that she's already with someone. And I myself has honor. Please do not misunderstand friendship with courtship!