New Tasks for Moi

Usually, at this festive season of the year, the Board would assign me to documentation. In affiliation with the previous years, this year I was assigned to backdrop and decoration. Previously, these posts were assigned to separate individuals. Fortunately (cynically), this time, both were assigned to moi (French for 'me'). I was in hesitation to begin with, but so far it has been good. I am very truly blessed to have such supporting niece (r u reading this?) and friends, which make impossible, if you may, things materialize. My utmost gratitude to them and to my Lord and Savior. :)

Non-verbal language

There are many ways one can give one's message across. We usually do it verbally. But recently, though I've begun to realize this for so long now, I noticed that messages can be given across via photos. Whether they were posted deliberately or not, they sure cry out the message across. You post it as a wall paper on your laptop computer, inside your wallet/purse, inside a frame on your table, etc. If let say, in your purse, when paying up, you flash the photo around, the one noticing it will feel like you're slapping the message to his/her face so hard his/her face becomes numb. Get it?

Save me...

My eyes were crying out, "save me!" But I'm not sure they succeeded in doing so. Cause my heart is being lead astray...

Making a movie worthwhile

Have you ever watched a very boring movie but felt it was worth it. Fortunately, the movie I watched was so-so. And it was worth it. That's all I need to say. :)

Pizzup?

So I dated a friend. Well, it was fun. No romanticizing. But simply fun. We laughed our heads off. Who cared about modesty and stuffs cause we're simply friends. ^^

Can't we be just friends...

Just because I'm single doesn't mean I'm desperate! I don't know why people keep on pushing me. S0 maybe it seems that I befriend her. This doesn't mean that it will end up in marriage. I respect the fact that she's already with someone. And I myself has honor. Please do not misunderstand friendship with courtship!

Though my feelings were somewhat awkwarded by it...

my instinct based on facts known only by my subconscious mind throttled my fingers to commence. I figured nevertheless that I was glad I did it, though the outcome was not rather pleasing but it was the journey to that outcome that really truly counts. And by achieving that, I'm sure it had imparted an indicator that I was still and is up to it.

Tuntumulud

Ever heard of it? Specifically SIB Tuntumulud. Been there in 2003, 2006 and just yesterday 2010...

They were so inspiring even as for me. They have been holding on to the principals taught to them. The way they dress for stage ministries... I'd have to give them 10/10. I admit a few 'tuning' had to be done to their music and choice of songs but alas they were simply blessing.

The worship leaders were as young as 14 years old. Musicians were 21 year old and below accept for their Chief Musician of course.

Talking about Sunday School; the teaching force are made up of Deacons not merely youths. They shape their congregations faith from the very root. The classrooms were very conducive. The tables and chairs were just like that of government schools plus the air-conditioners.

I really like to see how they progress over the years and pray for their spiritual prosperity.

I thought it could never happen

...but it did. Before it was impossible to materialize but praise God at last it did. Now I'm wondering if it could spawn another... for it was a very exhilarating moment... something I will treasure for the rest of my life...

Tuntumulud

Ever heard the name before. We are busy preparing for that. Last night we recorded our practice on sketches just for that. I didn't know how I performed. Whether it was al right or not, but when we watched the recording we were exited ourselves. Besides that we have one song to bring. I pray that my brother will deliver his content well and will open the eyes of youngsters who are merely toddling in a world of worship misconceptions.

What should I do?

Brothers supposed to back each other, but UNFORTUNATELY in my case this is ruled out. In front of me, he'd be a regular brother but at my back a drop of water could be as huge as a tsunami. Turning everyone if he could against me. I'm overwhelmed by this. So what should I do?

Not like my other brother, I can't manage things like this. When I was a kid, when having trouble I would keep it inside me. I would stay home, not going out even there's a party just next door.

I hope this is what my brother expect.

INFATUATION.

There are some feelings we have when infatuated that we don’t have when we’re feeling love. Some of the “symptoms” of infatuation are; feelings of panic, uncertainty, overpowering lust, feverish excitement, impatience, and/or jealously.
When infatuated, we are thrilled, but not happy, wanting to trust, yet suspicious. There are lingering, nagging doubts about our “partner in infatuation” and their love for us. We’re miserable when they’re away, almost like we’re not complete unless we’re with them. It’s a rush and it’s intense. It’s difficult to concentrate. And most infatuation relationships have a high degree of sexual charge around them. Somehow being with them is not complete unless in ends in some type of sexual encounter.
Do any of these “symptoms” resemble feelings of love? Hardly. So why do we become infatuated? Where does it come from? Perhaps it’s biological.
When infatuated we experience a surge of dopamine that rushes through the brain causing us to feel good. Norepinephrine flows through the brain stimulating production of adrenaline (pounding heart). Phenylethalimine (found in chocolate) creates a feeling of bliss. Irrational romantic sentiments may be caused by oxytocin, a primary sexual arousal hormone that signals orgasm and feelings of emotional attachment. Together these chemicals sometimes override the brain activity that governs logic.
The body can build up tolerances to these chemicals so it takes more of the substance to get that special feeling of infatuation. People who jump from relationship to relationship may be craving the intoxicating effects of these substances and may be “infatuation junkies”.
When the chemical flood dries up, the relationship either moves into a loving romantic one or there is disillusionment, and the relationship ends.

CRASH CYMBALS

Adolescence phase of unpredictability leads them to crashes which if directed to irresponsible crashees would prove to yield grievous consequences.

SPACE N TIME

I'm in a suspended time. Encores backtrack time. As if I'm still living in those days. In those shoes. In my youth.

I'm in a limited space. Financial constraints. Be merciful o' my heart for if not I'd already be in a parallel world.

Phthalic Anhydride

The name is a chemical used as a plasticizers for plastic industries.

Using it means I don't have to subdue to suggested pseudonyms.

Emotion clouds Judgement

3 months ago

So, when you are in an emotional unstability, e.g. angry, mad or deeply in a crush, reasoning is unwise. Put yourself in other people's perspective and try to analyze any situation in other people's shoes. Best yet, let your emotions cool off before reasoning.

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Had a great time at Kampong

3 months ago

Dining with cousins and other relatives was great. Fireworks, firecrackers, it was a merriest christmas so far.

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Unpredictable

4 months ago

Life is so unpredictable. If one thing doesn't go right a few times. It assimilates 'phobia' inside you. Makes you stiff. Makes you cold. Makes you wanna go someplace else. Vanish. Invisible. Then scream out loud. But limited only inside you...

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Forgive my Flesh

4 months ago

I think I have not been putting God first.

That was why I was so emo.

I think I messed up.

Gotta put God first.

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Multiple personality

4 months ago

It's a bit frustrating when dealing with a person with multiple personality. One time he/she be like this, a few moment later he/she be like that. When you would really (and like dying) to convey something to him/her, you had to wait for that particular personality to take place before conveying could be proceeded.

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Post Graduate has to wait...

4 months ago

Considering the constriction of time and fund, it seems that I am unable to continue with my intention of getting a post grad degree... Perhaps continuing at a more proper and condusive situation.

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Doubt seems to seep in...

8 months ago

I'm beginning to wonder if there's one out there more worth it.

Why must I go through this uncertainty times and times again?

Gambling is sin but life really is a game of chances.

We'd say yes but in reality it seems to be no.

Then previously we have this cold era.

What would happen if it heats up again.

It seems not mutual this one.

Or probably time is factor.

On which, I'd be suggested to let lose.

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Stress

8 months ago

at the time of desperation will one see all his life before him longing to have a second chance to make it better... well i think i have got the second chance...

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Masters Degree

9 months ago

I'm registering today, i don't know how's it gonna be. i thought i was done studying, but people used to saying that learning is for a life time. i hope i'm proving that right. it's gonna take 4 semesters and twenty grand. gonna miss church perhaps because the lectures are done in weekends. i prayed that if it was God's will, i'll get accepted, well i got accepted and now it's God will that i persevere this.

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A Leap of Faith

10 months ago

I've taken a leap of faith and hopes for the best to come for love...

I hope that this leap would not come in vain...

That through every obstacles, every road bumps, every fallen bridge, hope persists...

But what is hope if there is no faith...

And what is faith if there is no love...

For the greatest of three is love...

Reality or Fantasy

10 months ago

How can you tell if something is real or fantasy?

If you keep on thinking or dreaming of doing things in your mind or in your dreams and hoping that what you think would materialize in the real world, then nothing will happen.

If you wanna make things real, do it! See how things turn out. This way you would know the result or the consequences of your action. You don't try things and at one point stop and retreat. Later on pondering on the outcomes in your head and hoping for the best. This is not how thing works... this is not life!

Be real people!

Action speaks LOUDER than words!!

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Piala Pidato DiRaja Peringkat Daerah Kota Kinabalu

11 months ago

Today the event mentioned above was held at skul. I was one of the time keepers. The contestants were from primary skuls but they performed very good in the stage one of the competition.

One chinese boy was so fluent in giving out his pidato that he marvelled everyone present. With perfect gestures and words (bahasa melayu of course) I could've sworn he could get first prize.

Unfortunately, in the second stage of the competition, where students were given random topics to talk for, that particular boy could only give out the opening and closing words.

There's this other kid. He got the topic, "Berkongsi Kereta". One of his points though not many, was people should share their belongings to others and not be "bakhil". This was the moment where the crowd went nuts. It was hillarious. He went off of his topic. But considering that he was merely primary students, people just let it be. My opinion is that the boy must've felt weird why people laughed at his point.

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RTM did come!

11 months ago

I didn't want to be shot while teaching so I decided to conduct all my lessons in the lab. Beforehand though, I shaked hands with the host of the programme.

My class ended so I got back to the staff room only to notice there's one miscall on my handphone which I left there charging. Checked it... It was one of my colleague. So I asked him. He said that the rtm people wanted to cover my teaching session so he called. Because obviously no one answered, they cancelled their intention. I was thinking... that was close... ha ha...

Fortunately, I didn't miss all the chances of being in the documentary for when it was time to go back, they did an ending where the host talked and followed by us teachers walking towards the boat... the particular scene which needed a couple of takes.

It was fun. Let see if my face get shown in national tv... ha ha

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Mysterious...

11 months ago

It's a good thing to have a mysterious part of oneself. Others might get bored if they've known everything about you. But that's just an opinion. Be creative.

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RTM's gonna come to our skool, cool!

11 months ago

Tomorrow May 6, 2009, RTM is going to do a coverage of the skool in conjunction with this year's Teacher's Day. My students just don't know how to manage their classroom. If I didn't have any other responsibilities (being KP, Science Teacher, PeKA, Setiausaha PPSMI, Setiausaha Bidang etc) I would have easily managed to decorate the class myself. But you know how these poor students are, all they know is play, play and play. They even punched holes to the softboard behind the classroom. Worse, no one's admitting. I'm just letting it be! I know there are few things we shouldn't talk about, so I'm doing just that.

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Birthday Party @ Ivy's Cousin's

11 months ago

We thought it was at Ivy's house, instead it was actually at her cousin's house. Met some old friends over there. One was from USM. Another was my primary 4 classmate.

The food was great and all but I wished that someone was there with us... with me.